midnight stuff

mainan malam2 kalau lagi bosan. mengerjakan suatu foto yang hasilnya masih agak2 kasar. hahahaha, just cekidot

Got this from tumblr,

afterstorm (via grebex)

Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn’t something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn’t get in, and walk through it, step by step. There’s no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That’s the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.

And you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You’ll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.

And once the storm is over you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.”

~ Haruki Murakami (Kafka on the Shore)

Just a dream - Nelly

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
will she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now it's like I’m in the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shawty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tired.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
will she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher on but I can't let it burn.
And I just hope she knows that she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.
Hey, she was always in love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't
enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move on.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them
everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them
everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

Mother's day

22nd december 2010 adalah hari yang paling istimewa buat semua wanita didunia terutama para ibu. dari title nya saja sudah pada tau kan. mungkin kita ga tau bagaimana kondisi mama kita disaat pertama kali melahirkan kita ke dunia ini, tapi justru disaat itulah seorang ibu bertarung between life and death demi kita2. Pengorbanannya sangat besar karena untuk melahirkan kita kedunia itu nyawa taruhannya dan juga rasa sakit yang dirasakan seorang ibu saat melahirkan kita. Gue pribadi pun waktu diceritain sama bokap bagaimana nyokap gue berjuang melahirkan gue dan adik2 gue, dengernya aja udah ngeri banget, bahkan gue sampe nangis dengernya karena waktu itu gue kejepit dirahim nyokap dan hampir mau di vakum (ditarik menggunakan alat bantu agar bayi nya bisa keluar) tapi puji Tuhan ga jadi di vakum karena perjuangannya nyokap sehingga gue bisa lahir dengan sehat. Seiring berjalannya waktu pun, kita makin besar, makin dewasa, justru disitu pula puncaknya, yang dimana nyokap suka ngomel2 bawel ke kita karena kenakalan yang kita buat, lalu ngelawan sama nyokap setiap dinasehatin, disuruh juga kita hanya bisa bilang "males banget" atau "ah bentar dulu sih ma!" Tapi yang ga kita sadari saat kita ngomong seperti itu, jauh di lubuk hati mama kita dia nangis dan sakit hati, tapi dia ga mau nunjukkin ke kita kalau dia sedih karena dia ga mau bikin kita khawatir saat dia sedih. Gue sering kayak gitu ke nyokap, bahkan gue pernah berpikir kalau nyokap gue itu over protective, ga bisa ngertiin gue dan gue pengen ninggalin rumah ini sangking ga kuatnya. Tapi sebetulnya gue juga sakit hati disaat gue ngomong seperti itu ke nyokap. Ada perasaan bersalah banget yang bikin gue menyesal dan nangis karena udah bikin nyokap gue sakit hati. Bagaimana pun juga guys, ibu kita itu adalah pahlawan didalam setiap kehidupan kita, bukan cuma saat hari ibu aja, tapi setiap harinya. Gue seneng banget waktu ngeliat muka nyokap saat penerimaan raport kemarin tanggal 18 desember 2010. Seneng rasanya bisa bikin nyokap gue bangga akan nilai2 gue, ya walaupun nyokap agak2 bawel suruh gue untuk belajar hehe, tapi hasilnya ga sia2 juga. Tinggal selangkah lagi gue akan meninggalkan SMA dan menuju ke bangku kuliah, satu langkah lagi gue bakalan bikin nyokap bangga lewat UJIAN UAN, PRAKTEK, UAS, SIMAK UI dan test masuk UPH. Jadi mulai hari ini sampai seterusnya kita mulai tunjukkin rasa sayang kita ke mama kita masing2, sebenci dan sekesel apapun kita ke nyokap, sebaiknya ditahan saja, toh nanti kita akan menyesal dikemudian hari kalau kita terus kesel, dendam, dan benci ke nyokap. Everything she told us to do, i guarantee its for the best. Happy mother's day to my dearest lovable and beautiful momma, i'm sorry if i always make you cry or anything bad that hurt your feelings and heart, but from now i promise i will always make you proud and no matter what people say or what happen, i always love you forever and ever. I LOVE YOU MOMMA THE HERO OF MY LIFE, xoxoxo <3>

This is the fireworks from GBK senayan (still tiberias church christmas celebration 11 december 2010)

hey guys, these are some of my works when the fireworks started
it was unbelievable

TIBERIAS CHURCH CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION AT GELORA BUNG KARNO SENAYAN JAKARTA 11 DECEMBER 2010

it was a silent and holy night especially when we started to fire up all the candles. GBK senayan, you rock!!!